It seems like my word for the last few weeks has been “irrelevant”. It’s interesting how easy it is to get so caught up in all your own selfish thoughts that you actually convince yourself that all these little things are RELEVANT. Relevant means “logically connected and tending to prove or disprove a matter at issue”…. Are the little things we consume ourselves really relevant to our ultimate, intended purpose? I’ve found that when I feel so down, so sorry for myself, sick with upset or anger, the very best solution is to get outside of myself and figure out how I can help someone else’s day. Because for all the bad things that I perceive happen to me; the stuff that makes me just want to fall on the floor and feel sorry for myself, the truth is, I’ve got it all. I’ve got True Love. Someone who literally died for this life I’m wasting away. I’ve got work, passion, family, friends, travel. SOME PEOPLE DON’T EVEN HAVE CLEAN WATER TO DRINK. And here I am, sprawled on the floor and thinking I’ve got it bad. It’s absurd.
I’ve made it my new goal to wake up every morning and physically write out five things I am grateful for. Then I put the list in my pocket, and the second something threatens to steal my smile, I pull it out and remember. We can’t help anyone else if all we constantly think about is ourselves. So there it is. I will not feel sorry for myself. I will not wallow. I will be Joyful, and I will Love.
Speaking of love, here is an engagement session I did recently in downtown Fort Worth. This couple is AMAZING. It was so fun just watching them interact with each other. Bryan just finished Fire Fighting school, so we had some fun with his uniform. We went to this place called Fort Worth Water Gardens. If you know me, you know I’m a huge architecture fan (Frank is my fav… gotta make it Fallingwater this year.) I literally could barely shoot, I was so taken with my surroundings. You’ve gotta go check it out if you’re ever in the area… just bring a book, or some piano concertos on an iPod, or nothing at all, and SIT. To say it was calming is an understatement… For reasons that I’ll keep to myself, I was particularly wrecked that day. But as soon as we got there, I really honestly felt repaired. Even if it was just for a second 😉
Can’t wait to shoot Bryan and Aubrey’s wedding in the fall!
Here is a random thing that I’ve noticed and really love. Have you ever read something written by someone you care about and then noticed that you word something the way that they did? Like, let’s say someone updates their facebook status and used a phrase that you haven’t heard… I can’t even think of an example. Actually, I have a very specific example, but I don’t want to write it out! Hahaha 🙂 Then you notice that you use the phrase in later conversation. I love that so much, it’s like a tangible way of affecting each other.
And now: more vacation/work photos!